Okkk so mass post because I haven’t had time to do my Q&A journal, diary, or post on here in while.
PASC States was presh… Mrs. Troutman and her cute little baby boy, Breckan, were outstandingly kind and amazing people. I adore host families and Student Council.
I called Raj and Sur Sunday night in order to find out Kaela’s work schedule at the creamery. Raj wouldn’t tell me because I can’t tell him who I had, so he hung up. He called me back 3 minutes later, continuing the argument.. he asked me why I was even asking him when I brought up that maybe Sur would tell me without wanting to know my target in return; I responded “Because… I like you better?” and he giggled. Miss that! So I told him I’d call him back if Sur wouldn’t tell me the work schedule without wanting to know, too. Sur picked up the phone, and I said, “hey, can I ask you a question really quick?” he agreed and he said “you’re not playing, are you?” and I said “I’m playin’”.. I lied to him and told him I had Chandler and he immediately gave me the breakdown of shifts. #lovethetwins. I told them both that I would know if one of them had told someone my target because they would be the only people I told, and they were like yeah, so why can’t you tell us? and I said, “because i know that you don’t care if I know that you know!” - Raj said, “Shit, that’s true” and then laughed & Sur said “haha you got me!”. Gosh, I love ‘em. <3
I fb messaged Parker for like 4 days straight and it was cute. When I saw him at school on Monday, I was taking my normal route to Spanish (I saw him on the way to Spanish like the first week of school, but then he changed his route) and thinking about how he used to take this route, when the hallway cleared out enough for me to see him walking towards me… I smiled widely because I couldn’t believe that I had just been thinking about him and he had unexpectedly tried to take this way, which he hasn’t in months. He smiled, too, and I told him that I hadn’t lied today as we passed each other.. he turned around to say that’s good, p-y-l. I guess I’ve seen him almost every day in the hallway and he always says hi to me. The Mr. East informational meeting was on Thursday and he was present and cute sooo. He kept complaining about how he wasn’t aware there would be a quiz (we handed out a sheet that asked for basic information), and then at the end of the meeting, he tried turning in the sheet to me and I was like you’re supposed to hold onto that until your audition, but he was like ohh and made a whiny face and I said Parker, are you really gonna make me hold onto just your sheet? and he said sorry, P-y-l, but still had his had extended so I took it. I later reminded him that i was voting “no” at the audition. The following day when I passed him in the hallway, he said I think I got an answer wrong on that quiz. Funny boy.
Phil is one of my most treasured friends and I greatly enjoy the level of intimacy we have with one another. Sometimes, I can’t help but touch him because he’s so cute. This one time I sporadically hugged him from the side so that his head was pressed against my chest while he was sitting in his calc seat and I was standing. I like leaning against his body in any fashion because he’s like my brother and I’m just that comfortable around him. Also, I’m aware that I always give him crap about how he’s not as good a friend as me, but he has adapted and even increased the amount of time he actively reassures me, which I’m so freaking grateful for. This one time in physics, he summed our relationship with “our relationship consists of me putting up with you and you getting mad at me every once and a while when I can’t anymore” - what a darling.. I love him for putting up with me, because I guess I do fret a lot. In the school store on Tuesday, I was looking inside one of the boxes when I used my cute mad voice to say “Who ate all the cheese puffs?!!!!” while stomping and he cracked up. I also vented “I hate how my feelings about you change so much and how everyone knows that they do…”, he smiled and took out his graphing calculator to make a graph of y=1 and sinx to demonstrate him and I, respectively. On Thursday, while I was walking him to English, I told him that I could recreate his laugh in my mind and he said, “I can recreate your wretched happy giggling in my head” awwwwwwwww. My heart swells.
S/o to Adam, Zack, and Tae for being equally awesome & Mike Devo, just because. All I can say about that is.. I’m still Jenny from the Block ;)
Sam has been coming to my locker after classes/turning around to walk with me in the hallway recently and, you know what, that’s really nice of him because something about him will always make me feel comfortable around him.